April and all that means to me

I've been wanting to start writing, planning, thinking what I want to say, for several hours now. My life keeps getting "in the way".
Pat, my favorite snowbird, is here in Eufaula and she's come to see me three times (I've only made it up the road to her once!) in the past two weeks and has bought several pieces of jewelry! Bless her heart! I've also sold to FB friends and friends of friends and one of my Widowisland darlings also bought a bracelet. Helps the budget a lot.
I'm going to need quite a bit of money squeezed out to get my home renovations completed and there isn't a lot to spare in my normal budget. Jewelry and carving sales make all the difference.
If you know me on facebook you'll have seen the videos and pictures of the raging river that ran down my road yesterday. It put paid to my plans to go to my 45th high school reunion. Since I do not have a jeep, a four runner or a humvie I will be here at home exclusively for several more days or over a week, depending on what we can get the county to do.
Neighbor Larry has done wonders with his tractor but we need a new road built. We're down to the base rocks and washed out between them to a depth of about three feet. They've graded off all the top of the road over the past few years making it passable after big storms. There is nothing left to grade and gravel won't stay on top of rock. We need good fill dirt brought in, packed down and then some blacktop so we don't wash out with every heavy rain.
The upper road (a county responsibility) has had really poor maintenance so the bar ditches just aren't there anymore and our road happens to be the funnel to get water to the lake. Roads to either side of us aren't great but they are a lot better than ours.
But I didn't start this just to talk about roads made into white water rivers. I started this to talk about April and all that means to me!!!
JD has been gone for 18 months and a few days now. He so loved Spring and was a gardening fool this time of year especially. I've been gardening too and some of what I've done survived the rain. LOL Most of it, in fact. I may have to replant some seeds and drain some containers that got the drains plugged but what I did is still done mostly.
I've had JD on my mind a great deal. Diamond Rio, at the concert last week, sang "One More Day" and I've been singing it ever since. Oh, how I wish I could have that "one more day". I would hold him, tell him all the good things, talk about all the fun we had, cook him good but healthy foods and just bask in his presence. But we all know that isn't going to happen. All the wishing in the world will not bring him back and I must be forward looking.
I think I miss most the back and forth, good conversation. We talked about everything under the sun and even under other suns. We discussed plumbing and life on other planets. We talked about flowers and conspiracies. There was no subject on which we had no opinion even if the opinion was that we didn't know enough to have an opinion!!! I miss that kind of mind exercise more that I can ever say.
You, my readers, even if most of you are just in my imagination, are the ones I turn to in the attempt to fill that void.
When I'm attempting a new thing in carving or a new style of jewelry he isn't there to give me his point of view. I respected that point of view even when I didn't agree with it.
For me the new year starts in April. It contains the birthday of the ex who fathered my sons, the birthday of my eldest son, Mother's Day for remembering my own Mom, the latest time for planting most of what I want to plant, the beginning of the best creative time for me and much more. And this year it has meant rain in excess and damages to repair.
One thing I am missing very much about JD right now is that he is the one who had no back off on handling difficult communications. He would look at a situation, evaluate the cause or causes, see a solution and not let emotion sway him from implementing the solution! Me, I see seven sides to a six sided object, feel emotional and responsible for six of the seven sides and want to fix things so everybody is happy. Makes things much harder even though I'm "credited" for my sensitivity. In the long run maybe nobody is happy. Who knows?
And now I've said perhaps half of what I started out to say, forgot the rest so it will come up another time.
Almost 2 PM and I'm gonna go get some actual physical work done now.