Another special day alone

Just when I think it is getting easier another special day arrives.
With JD most days were special but some, like Valentine's Day, were just a bit more special. We seldom went anywhere, often didn't even have money for cards but when he could get me a card it was always just the exactly right one.
I remember one year, quite a long time ago, when he took me out for dinner at a very nice restaurant and we shared a small bottle of good wine with dinner. We didn't drink wine often but he knew how to choose one I'd enjoy.
JD was a closet romantic. He denied it but he was anyway. I have this lovely mental picture of my white teddy bear with a tuxedo jacket and a red rose. I kept that bear for many, many years.
Darling JD, these memories hurt but hurt sweet. Whether you brought me a single silk rose, a single chocolate or a simple hug, all the memories are treasured.
I loved you then and I love you now. Forever, beyond the end of my life.